Seriously, the weather sucked. Its so freaking hot. Classroom's air conditioner broken down, and its like a total sauna inside. Everyone was sweating like a faggot already.

Well, i realize that OPSS's Mid year examinations are just few days away. I wish for my friends at OP to do well in this exam, get good results and enjoy after the few days of ' living hell ' .

I just dont know what to post, Lost inspiration. :/

The heat from this 2 days is simply unbearable. Wonder why is the weather having up's and down's too. Sometime when it rains, its too cold. When it doesnt rain, its too hot. There hasnt been a perfect temperature day.

Reasons to all these : Global Warming.

Well, i do not know much about global warming currently. Passed by a forum and they were discussing on this topic, and i found it meaningful. As you see, they say, Air conditioner provides some kind of greenhouse gases. Greenhouse gases are the main root to global warming, but, in this current situation, not much people that have lived in luxury can sleep in this kind of weather without air conditioner. Hence, they are still supplying greenhouse gases every now and then. In countries where technology suffices, its almost impossible saying that everyone can live without air conditioner. Its almost a guarenteed that out of 10 families, 8 surely switch on their air conditioners to sleep at night. Well, cant blame the creator of air conditioner. Bet he didnt know at all that the creation will add on to the damage on earth.

And also, a quote i found in the forums. (:

"The trouble with the world is that the stupid are cocksure and the intelligent are full of doubts."
- Bertand Russell

Thank you to all those that wished me a happy birthday. (:

Well, being an year older now. Hopefully i can be more optimistic, more Anger Management towards myself. And also, i hope for my wish to come true(Which is almost impossible) (: .

Lets start off with the list of people that wished me through SMS-es/MSN :

1)Jason (22/4 , 2 days in advance of wishing)
2)Mufang (24/4 , 12.00 A.M)
3)Benny (24/4 , 12.01 A.M)
4)JinXuan (24/4 , 12.17 A.M)
5)Crystal (24/4 , 12.18 A.M)
6)KaiEn (24/4 , 12.32 A.M)
7)Nicholas (24/4 , 1.29 P.M)
8)Gabriel (24/4 , 1.35 P.M)
9)JiaXing (24/4 , 2.08 P.M)
10)ZhiWei (24/4 , 2.29 P.M)
11)PeiLing.L (24/4 , 5.54 P.M)
12)SA (24/4, Through ShiGuan's phone, hence no timing.)
13)Terence (24/4 , 8.00 P.M)
14)ShiGuan (24/4 , 10.xx P.M)
15)Deyney (24/4 , 11.xx P.M)
16)SerWei (24/4 , 11.53 P.M)

Went to school as per normal, and they had a TeleMatch event. No classes were held and we were released 30 minutes earlier. Bus-ed home, and prepare myself for the meal at BOTAK JONES :D . Met up with Alfred, ShiGuan, Royston, Benny, Nicholas and SerWei at Khatib MRT station, and we proceeded to the venue via bus. I ordered a regular black pepper chicken, and i felt so full. Wanted to order large but the other time when we ate, the large portion was really VERY LARGE. We were too lazy to move our feets cause we were too full, Hence the reason for me to order regular was solely that. Cabbed to OCC after our meal, and played pool over there. JingYong and WenSheng joined us around 5+. Left OCC at 6.45, and we made our way to OPC, while Royston made his way home. While walking, ShiGuan said he wanted to show us a snake that was in the sewers. We followed him for quite a distance, then me, Nicholas, SerWei and JingYong stopped at a busstop, deserting ShiGuan, Alfred and WenSheng. After which, Alfred and WenSheng went off as they had to go for cycling , SerWei went home too. The rest of us made our way to OPC and meet ZhiWei. Played Bluff and Who is the murderer. I made my way back at 9.30. Bathed, Ate Dinner, DotA-ed.

Well, perhaps i shouldnt force my body too much. Fatigue still resides in my body, and i need to rest well, before i fall which i dont find it surprising.

FUCK! Didnt manage to get up the bus on time. The people taking 969 today is shocking. 5 buses and all were full to the brim. Wow. Went home after knowing that im guarenteed late for classes.

Got home, and i DotA-ed for abit. There was this Stealth Assasin, which really pissed me off till the depths of no return. Every single time, he SNATCHED my kills whenever i hit the enemies till the last bit of healthpoints left. It was like, What the fuck? He took at least 9 kills just from snatching kills. Fuck it. Fuck Stealth Assasins. Feeling pissed, hence i went to sleep. Woke up at 1 and prepared myself to go find my brothers for lunch :D . Ate at 846, and im back now again.

Well, Off for some killing spree in Combat Arms.


Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You, My favourite band with my favourite song. :D




I dont know if you didnt see me on purpose or what. Seriously, am i being a prick in your eyes? If you dont like it, tell me straight. Dont make me feel condemned when i havent done anything to you. It's my personal matter, hence does not include you inside it. If you wanna side with him, then forget it. Take it as you have never met me before, a person as bastard as me then.

Woke up at 6 today, and my body was still feeling the fatigue accumulated from last friday till now. Dying already ._.

Bathed, Bus-ed to school. To my amaze, today 2 long-buses came consecutively, allowing me to have enough breathing space for the rest of my journey till Tampines interchange. Reached school at 8, giving me 10 minutes to get a quick bite before im late for my lessons. Well, i always loved wednesday's lessons. CMOS :D . We played DotA liked no one's business, shouting and screaming when we are getting kills or dying. To my amaze, this classmate of mine asked us to draft with them, and my team seriously have some beginners which CANT do anything. But we still won due to the Lion's good assist, Warlock's control over Stealth Assasin and Venomancer. And nontheless, My double kill with Tinker in one engage resulted in the fall of their reign :x . After that draft match, we continued to play 2 more matches 4v4 and 3v3. Lost the 4v4, but we won in the 3v3. I certainly do love playing DotA in class, and my classmates.

Was released at 12.30, and i got home at 1.25. Had my lunch while lazing around, hence doing my blogging now. I shall go take some time to visit LALA-Land now, since i've nothing to do.

*Edited

Went to find my brothers at 8 at OPC, and we played a poker card game called 'Bluff ' . Had fun with them always :D . ZhiWei joined us at 9 and he was doing his D&T work, finding his inspiration for his Exploration of Ideas. Chatted with him and Nicholas about some stuff in OPSS, while moving on to our personal lifes. Went off at 10, and Alfred wanted to eat some stuff at 846's coffeeshop hence we accompanied him. Chatted again, but , i seriously got KO -ed by ZhiWei from a sentence that he said. After that, he told me, "Dont because of those stuff make you feel so frustrated, take it easy. " I felt like, Geez, im really pathetic. Getting some advices from a friend younger then me when i am SUPPOSED to advice him instead in the place of an older friend. And also, what some of us feel, kinda true. The actions that you are doing are so damn obvious. Taunting me? I doubt so. My possesiveness may already had developed a form of invidious comparisons towards you and me.

Gotta brace myself for tommorow, long day ahead. 10 hours of school ):

Didnt went to school today, wasnt in good mood hence i didnt want to spoil the day by going to school and sleep or daydream.

Woke up at 6.45, and there was a heavy downpour. I SMS-ed Alfred and ask if he still wanna meet up or not. Slept awhile more, and went to prepare at 7. Met Alfred at 806, and we walked to 700+ macdonalds for our breakfast. Had HOTCAKES :D . Obviously i didnt have them for a long time, kinda deprived of childhood eh. :x . Oh, and WenSheng joined us halfway in our journey. After eating, cabbed to my house and we slept till 12.15. Left the house at 12.45, and we slacked at 803 for awhile.

Cabbed to OP's busstop, while alfred cabbed home as he said he was dead tired. Waited for Benny, Royston and co. to make their way out for lunch. Went to 848 for lunch, had dumpling noodles. Jiaxing and Andre then came and join us. Talked for abit, and i went with the 5B1 people to OP as i didnt want to go home. Slacked, talked with ShuYi, HuiMin, Saeed and Miss Anne. Waiting for Benny and co. to finish their remedial really made me looked like a faggot. Everyone was looking at me cause i was wearing sunglasses in school.

Met them up again at 5.30, but Me, ShiGuan, Benny went to 838 then we proceeded to Orchid Park Condominium to slack. Nicholas joined us at 838, and we had a wonderful time talking together. Exchanged many ideas and topics, which are quite fruitful to me. The entire conversation was more fun and relaxing then what i've gone through with someone. At least i dont get disturbed, i got my deserved respect, and im happy. Went home at 8.30 after getting phonecalls from my dad.

Well, Thank you guys, for accompanying me today. And what i write here, remains here. Unhappy with it? Your problem then, im not within your command. (:

No worries, I finally understand everything.

Now i know who are my true brothers, and who are not. At least, They ARE the ones that accompany me through my hard times. Comforting me, consoling me. And they wont grumble on how i rant at them about the matters im unhappy with. And nonetheless, the phrase ' Every man for himself ' sounded so true, in the exception of my brothers, of course. You want it? Take it then. I wouldnt give a fuck about it now, my mind is clear, and i've seen your true colours. Im blinded to have TRUSTED you so much. I've regretted everything, no doubt. Do you even deserved for me to talk to you? The answer is obviously no. Say im being childish, i dont give a fuck. Your life is yours. I live my own with my brothers, my family. I NEED NOT a person whom got close to me, while gaining my respect, and throwing all of it to the ground. Brother till all for yourself, and thats the exact reason why i despise you now. Saying that your dissapointed in me? Im more dissapointed in you cause you had never gave me a good reason to trust you again.

Jealousy? Dont even bother, for i dont think i will continue any longer. The more i think about it, its just ruining my studies, my relationship with others. My only pillars of support for me are ShiGuan and Alfred. I will stand by them, till the day i give up on my life. I shall lead an optimistic life and throw what has happen for these few days away. Of course, i would hope for everything to return to normal for us. (Except for the person im saying at the top paragraph.) Normal friends, still part of the team, still playing DotA like we were the way before. And i've never regretted knowing you. Hopefully, i didnt scare you too much, with the things i did, i said and the things that misunderstanding took place.

I will take the chance at here, to thank my brothers with the bottom of my heart. Thanks for all the things you all have done for me. I shall not be foolish enough to be damaging my body any longer.

ShiGuan, Alfred, Benny, Royston, Wensheng, Nicholas, Gabriel, Kenneth, Henry, JianSheng, JiaXing, Serwei. These are the people who i truly believe to be my brothers. (:

Amount of time slept : 2 hours +
Days accumulated : Friday, Saturday.

And so fyi, im currently breaking my own record. I feel so tired. I dont feel like going school. I dont feel like doing anything else. I cant put images from my phone into my computer. I cant transfer songs. I cant do almost anything. Fuck.

Anyone care for drink? Of course, not going till drunk. (:

2:02AM


1 hour passed since, and its not easy to pass. Yet, i find that for me to be pissed off over one of my close friend, seemed to be a super wrongly done decision. Should i say im childish? Should i say im nonsensical? Am i even qualified for it? Nonetheless, all these are echoing in my mind right now as i type. I really dont feel like giving up, but somehow, with my sucky attitude, i will just think of another failure. My mind is swirling, confusing my senses. I just dont see what's right or wrong already. Tears? Fuck it, but i did.

Sleepless night again, someone talk to me eh. :/

Perhaps the only photo with me wearing OP uniform that is in my computer.

1st day of school sucked.

No doubt, i went to school. Surprising as i DIDNT want to go at all. Reached there, and i saw the class list. Our NCT group splitted into 2 class, ONLY me and guojie at PI0904K. WTF man. The allocation really damn random, why do they split us anyway ): .

Did icebreaking, games. But i went home during 2 plus. Damned gastric, giving me pains that are enough to take my strength away. Seen the doctor, took the meds. Slept.

I fucking hate orientations, Thanks alot.

2 More days till school reopens!

Sigh, Thinking about school sucks man. I still wanna continue my holidays, the skype chats and DotA! Though i still can do those during schooldays. LOL.

Nothing much to post about also, Gotta get something and eat and im going off to LALAland.
I like Dumb.

Today is just simply too T-I-R-ING

Didnt sleep much, quite shag. Went out to find Fred and SG outside OP, then went over to SG house. To his dismay, HIS COMPUTER COCK-ED UP ON HIM! LOL!

Somehow, his CPU fan didnt have the "power" to spin. Troubleshooting just reduced to 1 result : The fan dead. Too bad, he wont be able to DotA nor chat online with us this few days. After that, we went to do some things, kinda tired. But hopefully they enjoy it.

School is reopening in 4 more days, sigh. I dont wanna go. ):

FUCKED UP.

End of story.